Found the Truth that I Had Been Searching for 43 years
-- David Farmers
My name is David Farmer and I am 43 years old. I wish to briefly share some of my cultivation experiences.
Most of the testimonials from other cultivators share the misfortunes that they have experienced in this human life before finding out about Zhuan Falun and the Master. I like others have had misfortunes in the past, but I want to share my experiences since reading Zhuan Falun. I have always felt that there was more to my life and that a part was missing. Then one day I was surfing the web and thought I would try this Qi Gong site called Falun Gong. Now I had looked at everything else around this site for about a year but at this moment I chose it. I started to read the material mostly Zhuan Falun and couldn’t quit. I noticed my left hand was open and my palm was facing the screen, I couldn’t understand it and didn’t try, I was truly reading the truth, that which I had searched for in my 43 years.
I would like to regress and piece some areas of my life together, that I may better convey from my heart to yours the profound feeling I had when I read the LAW that day. I am not sure what age I was when I had a dream, that was more vivid than any I can remember. I believe I was at the age of puberty, but I could see all these figures moving downward in front of me. The figures where golden white with a lovely blue (dark blue) background. When I awoke I thought they were Latin or Geometry figures. The strange characters I saw are in the book Zhuan Falun or other material which correspond to the Chinese characters in GB code. I am not sure what all that means except my destiny must be with Master Li and Falun Fofa.
That first night after reading a great deal of the material on the web I had an Opening Awakening. I lost my great Aunt about a year ago, whom raised me from the age of thirteen. I put all her bedroom furniture in an upstairs room of my house, with her and other relatives pictures. About a year ago I was sleeping in her bed, sometimes because the dogs I have bark so loud at night, but anyway, I awoke and felt something very heavy sitting on the bed. The power and presence was so over whelming that I didn’t dare look. I was truly scared to death to look. It even felt as if there were more than one. I felt it lay down beside me and then, "Boom" the area that it laid down on, sprang up and all was gone. Now that first night after reading a great deal of the material in Zhuan Falun they again appeared. I am sure that there was three, again the fear kept me from looking, they didn’t stay long when, "Boom" they were gone and this fast rotating flash which came like out of a tunnel, went between my eyes. Then this gentle looking man, dressed in a black outfit with dark hair, stood their, which I could only see him from the waist up, waived his hand and was looking into my left eye. He leaned forward as if looking deeper into my eye, turned his head slightly and gave me a feint smile. I was very startled but felt very secure with him. I couldn’t wait to get to work the next day and see if I could find a picture of Master Li. Now I had never seen a picture of him before, but I went to the web site at Iowa and saw the Master’s picture in all his splendor. The individual I saw the night before had the same face as the Master’s picture that I found on the web site at Iowa. I had to tell someone and find out what it meant. I looked at all the other practice sites on the web and felt a strong urge to select the Denver/Boulder site and told that practitioner what had happened. I was told that I saw the Masters’ Law Body. The practitioner from Denver/Boulder and San Jose told me to read more Zhuan Falun and helped me understand better what I had experienced and I wish to thank them for their patience. I now know from reading Zhuan Falun that what I saw was the Law Body of Master Li, which is his wisdom image, which is him. Please don’t think I say that last sentence lightly. I don’t feel I am special because I saw his Law Body, I mean I do feel blessed, but what it does is emphasize everything he has said and all I have read in Zhuan Falun. I am thousands of miles away, I read Zhuan Falun one day, my heart knows I have been looking all my life for this and his Law Body comes to me that night. A trillion people on the planet and he knew my heart at that moment.
I have always been interested in other cultures, religions, mystical stuff, etc. When I was in the 7th grade an individual came to our school with his wife and son and put on one kind of Yoga demonstration at my school. Now my home town is about 3000 people in Iowa, and Yoga in those days was not heard of. I thought it was amazing. I started to do the exercises and started doing double leg sitting. No problem in those days. I would sit on my bed and do double leg sitting all the time. One time I lost track of time and sat for a couple of hours before I came out of some kind of trance or something. Anyway today as a cultivator I have much pain just trying to do single leg crossing. The Master when he said as I upgrade my Xinxing I will be able to do double sitting someday is the truth. I have gotten rid of an attachment, (the attachment was the need to practice Tai Chi and other internals and reading my books on Qi Gong methods) which I thought I never would have and my ability to do single leg sitting has become better..
I am an American who was raised a Luthern. About a year ago I became a Catholic since my wife is Catholic. I had no problem converting and felt the Catholics had a deeper sense of tradition and many of the rituals they did reminded me of other cultures and religions that I had read about. I was always taught to try and keep a good heart and do what is right. However, I always thought something was missing. Upon reading other material written by the Master, he talked about Jesus and others. Now the first 18 years of my life I attended Sunday School, Church, Prayer all to learn the bible, yet still I didn’t understand the inner meaning. Then the Master in just a few words made those areas of the Bible that I never really understood come to light. I started to learn martial arts when I was 18. I finally ended up learning Northern Shao Lin, and Qi Gong. I have been really healthy most of my adult life and thought by keeping a right mind and practicing the internal with the external I was keeping myself healthy. Still I felt something was missing. However, I now know I wasn’t practicing true cultivation. Upon reading more of Zhuan Falun, the Master said I had to only practice one cultivation method. Now I have practiced 20 years of Qi Gong, but upon reading his words that night I didn’t practice the internals and haven’t since. I thought I would of had a lot of trouble giving up the attachment for them but I never looked back. Master Li and Zhuan Falun seem to have come into my life from no where, however, I have always searched for them.
I guess many of you have practiced Qi Gong for health as I have done. I even felt like I had opened up the small circulation with all the signs. When I started to practice the 5 exercises I was amazed. I had practiced Qi Gong faithfully for so many years and never had anything so wonderful so profound happen. I could feel lots of movement, I could feel different pulses from some spots to another. This just reinforced that the journey I was on was the right one. I now know that feeling the movements can be part of an attachment, so I just let them come and go, the best that I can. My first night at trying to sit was something else. I put my old iron palm bag on my knee to help keep it down. I can’t even do single leg sitting very well. Sometimes I wonder If I will ever be able to do double leg sitting. I was sitting the first night and trying to get past the pain and found some comfort for awhile and could feel this trickle from my forehead down and into my right eye. It kind of hurt but really felt good. During the first week of practicing single leg sitting I felt terrible. Now I have always had really good health for my age and now I felt terrible. I thought this must be what the Master is talking about in Zhuan Falun. My body was and still is going through this purification, it was karma coming up.
On December 3, 1998, my wife went to lunch with some other people and they all ate the same meal I came to find out. She got very sick with diarreaha , very sick but no one else got sick even they all ate the same food. The next morning she went to work still feeling some symptoms but better. I took the day off from work to do some house chores, when I got a call about 1:00PM that my wife had been in a serious accident and was being taken to emergency room by ambulance. I did not become excited and knew she would be all right. I was told the wrong hospital by the mobile operator and upon reaching the emergency room the administrator told me they had shut down this afternoon to ambulances. I stayed calm and asked him if he would call the other hospital to see if my wife had been sent there. Now I live in the south, and we have many racial problems here. Now he was big black man and I am little white man. However, something happened. I could see right when I asked him if my wife had been brought in, that he was already up out of his chair and was getting ready to leave. He kind of looked at me and stopped and dialed the phone. He not only checked two other hospitals but the ambulance service with out one sigh of making a big deal out of it. I finally went to another two hospitals before I found her and she was waiting in the emergency room. The car was totaled, hit in front and back same time and they had to pry the doors open. She had a sore throat and neck. Two days later she is fine. I believe with all my heart that Master Li knew that she was going to be in an accidence and purified her enough to help her be all right. You see the accident caused her to be thrown into the front of the car from the rear seat and the seat belt caught her around the neck.
Sometimes when I read Zhuan Falun I feel that I am drawn into some type of vortex, with many words upon words passing me by. I feel as if another part of me is also reading the book and when its done I have to back up and read the sentence again or the paragraph, I don’t understand this yet . I guess there is so much truth in Zhuan Falun like the Master says, at so many different levels that I can’t comprehend them except at this beginning Human Level.
I awoke Saturday morning the week before the conference and just laid in bed for a while. You all know how you awake sometimes in the morning and it is still early so you just lay there and close your eyes for a couple of minutes, well I did that and Falun came to me. It just stayed there in front of my eyes and rotated slowly, I just kept looking for about 3 or 4 minutes and opened my eyes and it was gone. I closed my eyes again and tried to concentrate on seeing it again but nothing happened until I let go and Falun appeared again. I took it as a sign that I was going to the conference. On March 13, I had arranged to go to the Eastern conference and in the morning, about 4:00 I again laid in bed, with my eyes closed and Falun again appeared. However, this time I could see myself on my back in the fetus position spinning in concert with Falun. I rotated and rotated until I got so dizzy I became nauseous and opened my eyes.
I often wonder who he is,,, I often wonder why I don’t know my own mind enough to free myself from all this sentimentality and move up quicker,,, but I don’t wonder about my heart because I know my heart,, and my heart knows that Master Li must be a Buddha.
I have seen a dramatic change in my conscious behavior. I try to remind myself that I am a cultivator now and practice and think from my heart. I am a beginner and some of the things that I have said in this letter may be wrong or may be right. When it really comes down to it though, I feel all I really know is that Master Li HongZhi wrote Zhuan Falun for us, to offer us salvation. Now I don’t know if the Master is the Highest Buddha, God, or what, because I am a new cultivator, but what I do know is that what he has done for me is out of this world. To Master Li HongZhi all my love and to everyone else all the best.